I am really shaky right now because of a discussion I've been having on Facebook since last night. I won't say what the argument is about, because I don't want to start another one here, but suffice it to say it was about religion AND politics. I know, I know, I should know better. In fact, the majority of the time when somebody doesn't agree with me, I either ignore it or (in extreme cases) block them altogether, but I just couldn't stop myself.
Now I am literally making myself sick. My heart is pounding out of my chest, my hands are shaking, my stomach hurts. Why do I handle confrontation so poorly? Why can't I speak my mind without going all nuts? I think I definitely have an anxiety disorder which requires medical attention. This can't be normal. Every time that little red notification balloon pops up on my Facebook now, I start sweating and dread looking at it, in case it's the person who I was arguing with. I can't take it!
|This is, literally, me RIGHT THIS SECOND.|
Despite the temporary insanity, I am an excellent arguer, if I do say so myself. ESPECIALLY in print. If this were to happen in real life, I'd turn all red and start crying, unable to get my words out. Online, however, I am unstoppable. I am incredibly eloquent and succinct, citing sources to back up my claims and hitting every bullet point. I would be an excellent online lawyer. You know, if it weren't for the debilitating anxiety.
I'm going to play trains with the kid now, and hopefully decompress a bit. Wish me luck!